Monday, 26 March 2012
letter to my HOH
Today I acted appallingly, I had a terrible attitude, and when my HOH told me to receive a spanking, I refused.
I feel I need to apologize to him. So I shall write it here, as well as giving it to him in person.
I am sorry.
Thankyou for not giving up on me and for not giving up on our our lifestyle.
I am sorry for not trusting you and for being angry. I am sorry for not doing as I was told.
I find it hard to understand my thoughts, thank you for giving me time to do that.
The way I spoke to you and my attitude was unacceptable and I am sorry.
Maybe I need to write down things to you to explain my behaviour, it might help our relationship, as I sometimes can’t make sense of things until I write it down.
I love you very much. Thankyou for doing this. I appreciate your commitment to this.
Please understand that I am trying everso hard, but I don’t quite make it to the finishing line. I will try, dont be easy on me, but equally know that I try.
Thank you for this, it must be very very hard to have all the responsibility on your shoulders, thank you for dealing with things so well.
I love you so much.
I will do whatever you ask of me to make things right again.