Things that I think, 'C YOU FOOL!'
For instance, shouting, 'oh F-off' in response to a lecturing husband, when I just want to be left alone. Or saying, 'shut up will you', when my husband is telling me off about something while I'm busy hanging out the washing.
I honestly can't believe I do things like this. I am not a nasty person. I spend a great deal of time thinking about other people's feelings and about being kind to others.
Also my darling husband is kind, gentle, loving, leading, sensitive and does SO SO much for our family, he doesn't deserve such disrespect.
Obviously when these things slip out of my mouth my HOH goes mad.
But before he flips out, and comes down on me like a ton of bricks (or ton of implements!) there is a period of time when time stands still.
It is about the amount of time for my husband's brain to compute, 'did she just say that to me?' Then when that time is over, the fuse is lit, the bomb explodes and the rampaging bull steams through the house towards wherever I happen to me.
I feel like some film character in the wake of some hurricane or stampede.