I know he has 'sought council' and has asked other HOHs their opinion to help him decide what is the best course of action.
The jury has retired and are yet to come back with their verdict.
I feel like there is to be some public flogging or something.
Other's in the community, who I have admired for their strength as leaders are to advise my husband on what to do with me, his wayward wife - I am so ashamed at my behaviour.
When I was at school I was pretty naughty and was in trouble regularly. Once, when I was about 15, I was in real trouble and ended up sat in the Deputy Head's office in front of four other members of staff, all deciding what to do with me.
That day ended in me having the worst punishment I ever had at school and I guess this time it will be the worst punishment in my marriage.
I am nervous.
I hate the waiting, it officially is horrible.
I am humbled by it too though.
I feel really submissive in my heart at the moment. I don't know if it's the waiting, or the realisation that my husband is currently working hard to come to a decision to make me and us better.
Well whatever it is, I hope the submission stays.
I shall write about his decision when he tells me what is going to happen.
Take care all.