I have always struggled with feeling isolated due to the secret nature of Dd.
Just last month I was stood at a party watching a group of my friends talking, thinking 'my life is so removed from what you think it is'.
I have however been in contact via the Learning DD network and text, with another British Dd wife, over the past 10 months or so.
Last night my husband and I met them.
It was a very surreal experience. I have never met anyone from the internet before and I didn't know what to expect.
I have also never met another Dd couple before, so it was a very exciting prospect.
I was very nervous. I sat in the pub, waiting for their arrival, with sweaty palms and a racing heartbeat. I felt like I was waiting to sit an exam or something!
Then in they came. It was lovely. We chatted and got to know each other. The conversation flowed, despite knowing a great deal about each other already from my friend's text messages.
There was originally no intention of talking about spanking, Dd or rules, however my big mouth soon changed all intentions!
We were talking about movies and I remembered that my friend and her husband had recently seen the film a Dangerous Method.
I asked my friend's husband if he had enjoyed it. There was certainly a twinkle in my eye as I asked, knowing full well that it contained a handful of spanking scenes.
My husband said, 'which film is that, have we seen it?'
'Yes' I said, 'don't you remember, the spanking one?'
And everyone cracked up. Woops, there goes my big mouth!
'Did you just say the S word?' my Dd friend asked me.
And from then on the conversation swerved into unchartered territory. It was refreshing, if bizzare, sitting in a local pub discussing how our husband's choose to spank us if we get out of line.
It felt both very normal, as we were two couples discussing it, and aparently unusual, as hushed tones were often adopted!
The strangest moment had to be when my friend's HoH said, 'I just don't get the female pshyche. Sometimes I hit myself in the head and think, why did you do that.'
And 'I don't understand why women want rules, but want to break them!'
Listening to another man saying the things my husband says so often to me was very strange, but also lovely.
It was surreal sat listening to two men discussing the behaviour, or lack there of, of their wives.
So my feelings of loneliness in Dd are dissapearing, just as the feelings of closeness to my husband increases dramatically with Dd.
I'm so thankful to have, not only a close Dd friend who is now certainly a real person (my husband had his doubts), but also, a close Dd friend who I am so similar to.
We have lots in common, some things are so similar that it's incredible that we met each other.
I'm a great believer in fate and I think it was certainly meant to be.
We are seeing our new friends again today and I'm so excited.
Thankyou P and A. You made my month!